35mm delta 3200 scan

35mm delta 3200 scan

While editing my steaming pile of NaNoWriMo the other night, I came across this sentence: “I hovered in the silent tension between my prayer and the hope for an answer.” 

I applauded myself for one good sentence (thank heavens) in a sea of trash.  Then I read something a friend had written, a similar sentiment of waiting and of prayer.

It is an interesting place to be suspended.  And it is not actually comfortable.  It is the place between winter and spring.  March 3rd.  It is the place before abadoning hope, the place before you realize what you’ve known all along, the place before the un-answer.  And I’m not entirely sure what to do here.

So I’m just waiting, hands crossed in my lap, feet swinging.  And I don’t even know for what.

11 Responses to “Sitting, Waiting, Not Wishing”

  1. cath c says:

    it’s good to wait. even when it sucks. i’m not so good at it myself. but i find as i wait, the appreciation of what’s to come is so much better than i imagined..love the photo.

  2. Amy May says:

    It’s awkward at best, being in that ‘limbo,’ flittering back and forth between rising hope and crushing ‘blah’s'…

  3. Amy May says:

    (ps – incredible photo…)

  4. Elissa says:

    Will you please write my next novel for me? xo

  5. drumming fingers . . .

  6. Kp says:

    Hilltop Laundromat. Spent many hours there…waiting. Haven’t been there in years, but I can smell it now. Sniiiiff!

  7. Mom says:

    Wow, that’s really beautiful :) Both sentence & photo. I’m really glad that you were able to celebrate your “genius.” Spelled it right this time ;)

  8. Louise says:

    I immediately knew where this was taken. Local-yocal. “The un-answer.” I could hand those out like candy. Perfect!

  9. Erin says:

    That sentence is awesome.
    And whatever it is you aren’t waiting for… it will come to you.

  10. aimee says:

    waiting for godot…

  11. chele says:

    sigh.
    I have said ..”your sentance”
    you nailed it.
    i’m right there with you… in “that” space.

    Your raw truth breathes into me. thank you

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