Posts Tagged ‘quasi-cheesy’

Use Your Illusion

February 19, 2010
Illusions are art, for the feeling person, and it is by art that you live, if you do.  (Elizabeth Bowen)
tri-x film in mamiya 645af.  mowgli and a girlie friend.

tri-x film in mamiya 645af. mowgli and a girlie friend.

Today I’m thinking about illusions.  The illusions of vision, of art, of social role, of relationship, of should, of connection, of separation, of possession, of acceptance, of proper, of religion, of comfort, of security, of emotion, of praise, of beauty, of insult.  Hey!  Another one of those lists.  I haven’t gone all there-is-no-spoon yet, but I do think I’ll go on a quantum physics kick, now that you mention it.

I’m thinking about how we can become so governed by those illusions, and about what would happen if we . . . weren’t.  If we accepted their function when appropriate, loved the illusions for what they were, and then gratefully let them go in due time.  “Arigato Zaisho,” if you know what I mean

I’m thinking, and letting go of a few other . . . thinkings.  Oooh, I have a lot more to say here, but I’m operating under the illusion of time, so I must go.

Have the illusion of a happy weekend!

My Promiscuous Muse

February 15, 2010

I have a promiscuous muse. My muse wants to own every color, work in many media, and in numerous genre. (Mary Klotz)

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And hooray for the swing of the pendulum, though broody does hold such a special place in my heart.  I’m sure I’ll see it again soon.  No sense mourning the  lack of mourning.  hmpf.  And I suppose it is a more pleasant feeling, but it is not so different from last week’s rage-y-ness.  Crazy is crazy is crazy.  Y’know?

My current task is no longer to prevent falling apart crying in public, but to stop myself from hugging everyone I see.  It’s a little ridiculous.  I mean, where is the balance?  Could we please just find a comfortable little monotonous feeling, maybe?  (Or, not.  That would be boring.) 

Also, I’m having to really work today at focusing on mundane tasks.  The voices that are singing melodies and telling me about the scenes I missed, and the images that are poised and ready for paper are all bouncing off of the walls and into one another.  I tell them to wait, but they scoff at the dishes and interrupt picture books and serenade diaper changes.  And then, when I finally sit down at the piano, for example, they are nowhere to be seen (heard).  So I love them, but I sort of hate them, too.

In this state I’ve thought up a few really cheesy ideas.  There is one, in particular, related to this gushy omnibenevolence. I’m trying to keep it under wraps, because it sort of makes me cringe, the cheesiness.  But I’m afraid I might burst soon.  So, you know.  Fair warning.

Oh, and P. S., my tube socks have arrived.  Hello.

See?

November 13, 2009

 

We worry about what a child will become tomorrow, yet we forget that he is someone today.  (Stacia Tauscher)

Making a portait is an emotional thing for me.  Alright, so just about everything is an emotional thing for me.  But a portrait, in that quick snap of the shutter (1/125 seconds, to be exact), can knock me on my proverbial back.  I can feel the profound force of human connection, and it moves me. 

I think people—both children and adults—long to be seen, truly seen.  I feel this way every time someone looks into my lens.  And I do see it, most of the time, especially in the eyes of children.  It is an intimate and validating thing, this sharing of energy and trust. 

Recently, by request, I shot some portraits of the kids at a local Boys and Girls Club.  I have not been accepting clients for several months, in the interest of some personal projects and themes that i’ve wanted to pursue.  But I’m telling you, this felt good.  So good, in fact, that I’m considering returning to client work in the Spring.  Yes.  Typing that made me smile.

My work with the Boys and Girls Club will be displayed—20 posters, in fact—at the Taste of Washington County event on December 3rd.  Come see!

 

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Under My Nose

November 8, 2009

It takes little talent to see clearly what lies under one’s nose, a good deal of it to know in which direction to point that organ. (W. H. Auden)

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The magnolia shrub, just outside my front door (literally).  So many times this weekend, I felt like I was being treated to a private showing of the Earth’s beauty—all just under my nose.  I love it when that happens.